Hey fuckmooks,
I finished the latest episode of GTC. You can check it here. That episode drained me. It involved over a dozen YouTubers on three different continents in four different countries and I'm not sure how many States. The response has been phenomenal. I feel that I'm really starting to approach the full potential of what 'user-generated' content can be. And now I am empty.
I always get this way after I finish a project. This time I think it may be heightened a bit because this episode was such a massive undertaking. I just am always scared I won't have any more ideas. I know it isn't true, I always have a ton of ideas and even now I have ideas for at least 4 more episodes. I just get an empty feeling for a little while after I finish creating something. It doesn't help, of course, that people immediately start asking me, "What's next?" I kinda wanna scream at them, "Go make a fucking episode yourself! That's kind of the point of this fucking experiment me and Nalts have going!" And they're asking me this while the episode has only been online for about 12 hours! I'm kinda like, "Shithat, at least let the folks in Australia wake up, have their cup of Milo and watch the fucking thing before you start hassling me about the next episode!" Don't get me wrong - I know they're only asking because they are really enjoying what I'm doing and I appreciate the fuck outta that, but, c'mon, ease up a little, folks. I'm just a waiter making videos. There's no production team behind this damn thing.
Another problem is that the show is becoming much more popular. "What's the problem with that?", you ask? Well, I'll tell you: I spend HOURS each week monitoring comments and answering emails and whatnot. If our little show gets too much more popular then I don't see how I'm going to be able to find time to actually MAKE the damn videos! "Well, just don't answer all the emails and read all the comments." Dipshit - the whole PREMISE OF THE FUCKING SHOW is that it is completely interactive. If I stop paying attention to what the audience is giving me, then we are just a regular show and that's not our intention.
I also might need to slow down production anyway just to give people more time to produce their own episodes. Me and Nalts work pretty quick, but I understand that other people may need more time. We're really just playing things by ear, but it's important to try and identify potential pitfalls early on I think.
I contacted the folks at YouTube about setting up an administrator account on the gtc's channel so that I can allow other people to help out reading comments and watching video responses and monitoring emails, but not allowing them to upload videos or change any of my settings. They actually got back to me pretty quickly on this. They told me 'it would set a bad precedent to do that for just one person', but they're gonna forward the idea to their product development division so maybe that's something they'll develop for everyone.
One of the main reasons I'm worrying about all this is that we are about to get a lot more attention. They just put us on their 'featured channels' section of their homepage. It's a new feature and people just ignore it for the most part (I only just caught a glimpse of it by accident), but we've picked up a couple dozen subscribers because of it. Next week they are featuring us on their 'new subscribers' page. That's the screen that shows up whenever someone opens a new account. When that happens you almost always get about 2-3K new subs immediately. Most of them aren't hardcore 'tubers, which is what our show is geared towards, so it may or may not make a difference in the responses and emails I get. Although our show is pretty good and does allow audience participation so maybe it's a great way to welcome new people to YT and let them get involved with us.
There is one more thing going on behind-the-scenes and it is completely unprecedented as far as I know. I wish I could talk about it, but I really have no idea who actually reads this damn thing (by the way, thanks for reading, marquisdejolie). If it actually happens it could cause a real shitstorm. Whether or not the shitstorm is good or bad - I have no idea. But people are definitely gonna be talking about it.
I think this weekend I'm gonna work on a 'behind-the-scenes/making of an episode' thing. Show everybody how I put together this latest episode. Probably just post it to my own channel, but Nalts'll probably want me to post it on gtc's channel. Being the bad guy on a show that I am the primary producer on kinda makes me a bit schizo. Like, how will the audience react to seeing 'Loquesto" teaching them how to make a video? Or even "The Alpha"? I make it a point that neither of my characters break the fourth wall. That's Nalts' job. I really have no frickin' idea what I'm doing.
One last thing, for those of you sneaky fucking fans lurking on my blog, someone is gonna get killed off. I made that decision yesterday. Been toying with the idea for awhile, but I finally committed to it. I would love to make it Nalts, but after the "Faking It" episode, no one would believe it. Also, I'd probably get death threats of my own.
